I am home from hospital now. Just walked in the door. Been five mins and I am thinking about suicide already. My boyfriend is more interested in going to the gym after work than coming home to see me. My mum asked me to let her know what I was doing. I messaged her to let her know I was home and within two seconds she is on the phone wanting to know what the dr said. I just walked in the door. Leave me alone. Yes I know reading this it sounds stupid. One is giving me attn i dont' want and the other wont give me the attn i do want. All in all... I am wondering why the hell I asked to come home. Why didn't i just stay in hospital. Why dont I just die? I am so miserable. This never ends.