Hello, everyone. It has been a while since I last posted in a forum. I have been feeling suicidal and depressed for a long time and in that duration I have also been thinking deeply about life as a whole. First, I understand that life is unfair and some people have it so good in terms of life quality and some people's life is nothing but torments daily. Second, I understand that this world is not for everyone to be happy and prosper. It just is not possible for a world of 7 billion people. Third, I really don't see the point in keep enduring and making the most of life if I never liked living, enjoyed living or felt life is worth living. Some people say suicide is selfish because of its devastating effects on their family and close ones. However, not a day goes by without wishing I were dead already. I already gave up on marriage, raising kids, having a house and living long. I also have nothing against happy and life-loving people either. All I want is just removing myself from this world already. That is why I wish I were dead already. There are many unanswered questions about life. But my questions to you guys are this. For people like me who just happen to dislike and hate daily life profoundly and have no interest in promotion, marriage, raising kids and living long, why should I keep living? For how much longer should I keep enduring and toughing it out?