Things are getting to be so much more than I can handle. The panic and depression. I don't want to live like this; I'm only ok for intermittent periods and then right back down again. I've tried to remain positive, distract myself, fake it, only to end up back in the same spot. I'm on medication. Everything feels so out of control inside and my world is such a dark place. There is nothing worth keeping me here. I don't have the energy to even try anymore and I don't care either. I just want peace.