Just want some hugs

Discussion in 'I Need Empathy and Compassion (No advice wanted)' started by Innocent Forever, Jan 29, 2017.

  1. Innocent Forever

    Innocent Forever Go as long as you can. And then take another step. Chat Pro SF Supporter

    Feeling really under the weather - have been only for the past couple of days which I'm grateful for. And just want some sympathy and hugs.
    My boss was really nice about taking off work tomorrow. when I spoke to her she told me not to come in the way I sound. My other boss I texted that I have a replacement.
    Didn't sleep last night. Hopefully will sleep tonight.
    When I was drinking tap water was throwing it up immediately, that and gook.
    Hopefully will wake up tomorrow feeling awesome. Right now I'm just feeling so under the weather and just want people to care. Thanks all of you! Take care of yourself. You're awesome and special. And worth it.
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  2. Northern

    Northern SF Supporter

    Hope you will feel better soon!

  3. IdontMatter111

    IdontMatter111 meh..............just meh


    Hope you feel better soon!! :)
  4. walkerbait95

    walkerbait95 SF Social Media Forum Pro SF Supporter

    Sorry you're sick!
  5. Luoma

    Luoma 罗马. Need someone to talk to? I'm here!

    Sending all the hugs to you this evening. Stay strong. <3
  6. WatchingPlanesFlyBy

    WatchingPlanesFlyBy Captain of the Catwalk

    Hey there @Innocent Forever. Sending you some extra special grade-AAA invisible hugs.

    You take care of yourself! I'm prescribing some ginger tea, low-sodium chicken soup and plenty of bed rest!
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  7. na-taya

    na-taya Well-Known Member

    Hope you feel better soon sweet pea *hugs*
  8. Brian777

    Brian777 Safety and Support Forum Pro SF Artist SF Supporter

    (((((Hugs))))) :) hope you feel better soon
  9. calvinandhobbs

    calvinandhobbs Well-Known Member

    I am so sorry you're sick . Canadian cyber tlc sent to you Xoxo
  10. nobodyknows71

    nobodyknows71 May the odds be ever in your favour Forum Pro SF Supporter

    Mega ((((((((((((((((((((hug))))))))))))))))))))
  11. brightlight

    brightlight SF Supporter

    (((((((HUGS))))) and two dogs send you face licks and uncontrollable tail wagging
  12. Claudia UK

    Claudia UK Well-Known Member

    Loads of ((( hugs)))!!!! for you my dear. xxxx And a bear (( hug 99 from my dog plus slobbery kisses. :) Stay strong my love!!
  13. littlestarsmum

    littlestarsmum Well-Known Member

    I’m so sorry you’re feeling that way, friend. I just said a prayer for you, and I hope that God will surround you with His comfort, strength, and peace. Hope you’ll feel better soon. Sending hugs & prayers your way!
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  14. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    I care. I am sorry things are so stressful for you right now and hope things improve (huggles) You are amazing. x
  15. Innocent Forever

    Innocent Forever Go as long as you can. And then take another step. Chat Pro SF Supporter

    Thanks all! You're the bestest.
    Completely not dealing at the moment.
    Just have to get through the moment, one moment at a time, right?
    I really would love some people to just come and hold me right now, and promise me it'll pass.
    I wrote out in my journal what I was thinking, wrote it out in order that can photocopy it. Have an appointment tomorrow that will either be the last therapy app with this person, or it won't. Gonna look at the photocopier now and printer, hopefully it's working. It's scary for me to do this. Especially as it could anyways be the last appointment so like, I'll be giving someone a piece and she won't even do anything with it.... I'm just pretty scared of where my head's taking me at the moment. The only way I have to get some calm is painkillers. I don't remember exactly when the last time I used them were but it's been nearly 4 weeks. Not so sure that staying away is the best idea if this is where it takes me to, but if I'm honest, the only reason I ever got involved with them was coz' of being here, so not sure what causes what. Can't untangle the threads that are tangles together in my head but don't need to. I kinda feel nothing. Like, just that. Nothing. I don't feel anything at all. It's weird.
    This probably makes no sense anymore :)
    Take care. You're worth it. Always.
  16. nobodyknows71

    nobodyknows71 May the odds be ever in your favour Forum Pro SF Supporter


    It will be four weeks tomorrow. You can make it. I know you can!
    And if I'm right, if you use, you'll be beating yourself up about it. So you may as well just NOT use.

    Therapy is very daunting.
    Ending therapy is daunting. (Take it from me I know the feeling)
    That last session is kind of weird though right? It's like, do I bear my soul to you and then just leave?
    I know you're situation is different, but I can relate.

    Look at it this way, if you give her the paper and it doesn't work out, you know for sure she's not for you. BUT if you give her the paper, it COULD lead you down a whole new path with her.

    If I could come and hold you I'd be there in a flash. I'd hug you tight and tell you it WILL pass. Because it WILL.

    I'll be thinking of you tonight and tomorrow.

    Take care of you

    Love and hugs x
  17. Innocent Forever

    Innocent Forever Go as long as you can. And then take another step. Chat Pro SF Supporter

    Thanks S. That means a lot to me.
    I copied it to give to her. That's what was thinking. Also that, then she knows what's going on. She always says she doesn't know what I mean, that I'm not explaining myself. And it's true, because I only say what I know, which isn't very much. But here, even though what I wrote doesn't say anything, it does capture what I mean. So yeah.
    I'd love you to come here.
    Take care. You're special.
  18. nobodyknows71

    nobodyknows71 May the odds be ever in your favour Forum Pro SF Supporter

    Hey, I'm glad you're ready for tomorrow. I wish you all the luck in the world and hope that it goes how you want it too.
    Sending you every positive vibe I can.
    Sleep well

    Love and hugs x
  19. Laura79

    Laura79 Well-Known Member

    Sorry your feeling under the weather and hope you get to feeling better soon (((hugs)))
  20. Innocent Forever

    Innocent Forever Go as long as you can. And then take another step. Chat Pro SF Supporter

    Okay, I'm just gonna scream.
    Everything is hurting so so much right now.
    Therapy was good. Didn't get to give her what I wrote, but it was okay, she got the picture.
    I hate this. Hate being here. It's kinda a combination. Of all that using was masking. Combine that with withdrawal. Suicide definitely seems like a really good idea at the moment. Not gonna write about that here. It's not for this board. Just tired. Drained. Confused. Hate being here. Wish someone would come and hold me and promise me it'll get better and that it'll be okay. My knowledge doesn't help me at the moment. Don't know. It somewhat does. For I'm still here. So, I'm tired. It's been a long day and my head's not being a pretty place to live in. I wish it would oblige me and just be calm. It doesn't want to. It didn't ask me what I want.
    Take care all.
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