ive been off my meds because of a med change. and ive hit rock bottom and i cant tke anymore. i just dont want to be here anymore. i have a therapist and i told him. but, i just cant hold on anymore.because it is just too hard. i want to just curl up and die. im also a cutter and i cant tell u how close i really am. im at the end. i dont start my new meds till wed. it feels like an eternity.