I just dont get what Im meant to do. I feel to useless. I feel I serve no purpose and that I am not needed. This is not to be confused with a feeling of worthlessness. I just feel not needed. Has anyone ever read that short story by Isaac Asimov where it is discovered the planet is a giant science experiment? Anyway in that story the alien/god 'scientists' decide to end the experiment by introducing a 'penicillin' that makes everyone want to kill themselves. Thats how I feel all the time. Like theres some invisible drive or influence that will make me kill myself. No longer needed, useless and obsolete - ready for termination.