Over the last week, my boyfriend's friend has been staying at his house because he is suicidal. I didn't mind that he was staying there since I have been there too. But he was leaving me out and IDK if this is being selfish but I was upset. I told him last sunday about it and he gave me crap. So the next day in school, he pretty much broke up with me. We were dating for over a year and a half. I love him, I gave him my virginity. When he told me that he didn't want to be with me I started crying. The teachers in the lunch room took me to the nurse. I then knew that that night I would kill myself. I sat in the nurses office almost all day, staring at the wall thinking about it. Other then my boyfriend, I have one other friend. I was texting her while I was in the nurse telling her all this. She obviously didn't want me to kill myself, but I wanted to. I knew that if we didn't get together I would have done it. That night we did get back together and are doing great. I have tried to kill myself so many times before, almost every way. I have depression, bi polar and schizophrenia, but I act like a normal 16 year old girl. I always have in the back of my mind that I do want to kill myself. And only my friend knows that. She's going 800 miles away to college next year though so I don't know what I will do. I'm with my boyfriend everyday so without him I really have nothing else. Now my little brother told my mom that he is thinking about killing himself. It seems like I can't get away from it. Also, in March my friend killed himself. RIP Justin, we miss you. I just wanted to tell someone all this. I have been crying all night and I just don't know what to do. My boyfriend and friend are both asleep so I just wanted to tell someone, even if no one reads this.