I am so very down again, but more down than before. I just realized the only thing I have going for me at this time is my cat, which isn't a bad thing. But I have nothing else, no friends and a family that hates me for what ever reason I don't know. With my bday tomorrow and not having any one to celebrate it with, I just want to drive my car off a cliff with me in it. It's not like I am going to be missed by anyone, except for my cat. I just want to cry, but can't because I am at work. I am off to my second job in 10 minutes and still can't cry. Sometimes I wonder why I was ever brought into this world. I feel like I am just adding clutter to the world and that everyone will be better with out me. No I am not going to do anything crazy. Just want to talk and get all my emotions out.