As long as I can remember I've been bullied, and it's had more of an effect on me then you'd expect because I suffered child abuse when I was younger...my father used to throw me down the stairs, hit me, kick me and burn my hands with coffee to make sure I knew not to touch his coffee. Last year I had braces, and everyone in my class would call me football field for some gay reason, and it gradually got worse and worse. Then my friend and I had a fight, and she ended up bending back my fingers until they almsot broke. I ended up changing schools, and at the start of the year I was getting bullied on the school bus. It got to the point where I started catching the public bus, then walking to school. Everything's settled down now, which I'm grateful for. And I have thought about self-harm, but I soon changed my mind because I don't want everyone to think that I was doing it because I just wanted attention. And I just posted this because I'm still trying to look back and realize how far I've come, and seeing this it's quite a long way in just two years.