i try to help my father with his business. he wants me to work day and night everyday for the restaurants cooking and boxing. i had 3 days off in the last 9 months only because my friend came down from DC. i've had to miss my friends wedding and not go with a friend to vegas for new years. he always disatisfied with my work. i try to get more involved with installation modernization, remodeling, sandblasting, gardening. but he doesn't want me to touch anything. he doesn't want me to move out or make girlfriends. i will be almost 50 before he passes away. and my mother wants me to stay single and live with her. after getting my bachelors, i wanted to be a high school physics teacher and peace corps volunteer. which they are very much against. if the only thing they care about is making money, i have become a useless civilian for society. i think life is meaningless. after our telephone conversations he hangs up on me without saying bye and talks to me like a dog. i'm 37 and my own individual. i don't think i can run away without going through severe depression. i believe i am a reasonable candidate for suicide.