I failed or forgot to mention I'm rather unwell at the moment, Getting rare minor pain in my chest and I keep fainting every other day. Last week I fainted in the bath and nearly drowned today I just fell down the stairs. I'm ok, no harm done. It's been brought on by my ex's treatment of me and the ignorance of my Father and Half Sister. My friends don't visit, I don't really want to see them but I'd like the company of some of them. I am not going to let my girlfriend see me like this, I'd rather die. I'm thinking of throwing myself down the stairs until I don't get back up.