Hello ~ Don't want to burden anyone in my life with my feelings. I can post here and even if no one replies I will feel better for having done it. I am not committing suicide today because my son is only 11 and he needs me, even in my diminished capacity. My parents both have Alzheimer's Disease. We have had to put my mother in a nursing home to keep her safe from my abusive father. My mother is not doing well there. I feel the need to fix it. It is very difficult physically and emotionally to take care of her. I am exhausted. You can't just admit someone to a nursing home and walk away. You need to go every day and help take care of them. I have Multiple Sclerosis and was just laid off from a job I loved for 13 years. So I am lucky to be free to take care of Mom. She took care of me. I don't want my children to go through what I am going through. I do not want my children to have to take care of me. So when my son is 18 and has graduated from high school I plan on taking my life. I hope I make it that long. That gives me 7 to 8 years. I just want to tell someone, even if it is no one, how sad I am.