My GP retired from family practice in february. i made an appt at the medical practice to see another doctor i have seen previously. then i get a call back that i "would be better seeing someone else". they wont see me there any more. i had been going there 10 years and was ready to beg for help from them. now i have no doctor and noone to help me with all the other medical probs i have.
so i saw the pdoc at the hosptial who wont give me any antidep for the moment as she has said they dont help - that the only thing that can help is therapy. i told her how suicidal i am and she said she "knew but hoped I wouldnt try again". no hospitalisation. nothing.
i feel abandoned by everyone. and i cant stop crying still. life is just too hard. i know i am really low and dont think i can get any lower - but then something comes along and kicks me further.
i know this sounds pathetic and people will probably say i should just get over it and pick myself up - but i cant. i have no family who care and friends who ran when i had the breakdown 18 motnhs ago. i have nothing left. i have had more than 12 attempts this year and some ere very serious. what is the point... i keep looking for something more permanent... and i dont know why i am posting....
so i saw the pdoc at the hosptial who wont give me any antidep for the moment as she has said they dont help - that the only thing that can help is therapy. i told her how suicidal i am and she said she "knew but hoped I wouldnt try again". no hospitalisation. nothing.
i feel abandoned by everyone. and i cant stop crying still. life is just too hard. i know i am really low and dont think i can get any lower - but then something comes along and kicks me further.
i know this sounds pathetic and people will probably say i should just get over it and pick myself up - but i cant. i have no family who care and friends who ran when i had the breakdown 18 motnhs ago. i have nothing left. i have had more than 12 attempts this year and some ere very serious. what is the point... i keep looking for something more permanent... and i dont know why i am posting....