Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by KMS, Oct 29, 2008.
that is all
What troubles you today?
It may make you feel better to talk about it.
Either way, I hope you feel better soon.
Life troubles me. the lack of companionship troubles me. just kill me $80k to whoever wants to
$80k, as in $80,000? Do you have that much money?
Don't be saying things like that!
Are you talking to me or the original poster?
yes i do. if you sell my car you have 80k.
Couldn't you do something with that money that would make you happy? Not that money equals happiness, but it does give you a lot of opportunities. What do you like to do? What WOULD you like to do?
the car makes me happy. it is also a source of stress as i race it as well at tracks.ive been at this game for 10+ years nothing has changed nothing gets better. i wish i could jsut bow out
money doesnt buy happiness
although i could make myself happy for a few hoursand buy some serious escorts heh
What has happened to bring you to this decision to end it all?
A little more info on whats happening with you would be great. You need to go back and think about something positive that you have done in the past. Then take baby steps to build from that little sliver of happiness.
I'll give you an example. I have always felt guilty because I wasn't there for my daughter. About four months ago she moved down here seeking employment. Well it hasn't worked out so her and my grandaughter are going back up north. Now instead of thinking positive that I have tried to help her to no evail. I always tell her I love them both. Thats not good enough. So the thoughts of guilt have crept in and I am ready to end it all. Now I should have thought about the poistives that I have tried to help her reestablish herself, but I don't all I do is think that I should have tried harder. I can't get her a job but I could drive her wherever she needed to go. I put a roof over her head, food in their belly's, and have opened up to her, that hasn't been enough so I am going to loose out on my grandaughter growing up.
So please don't let it drag you down take my example and keep trying and to work on being intimate with your self. You need to love yourself to be able to love someone else. They say everyone needs a mate. I beleive that to an extent, but when you get to be my age it just isn't important anymore. Take Care and Stay Safe!!~Joseph~
nothnig has happened in 10 ytears. thats the problem. thats the trigger. im sick, im tired i dont want to do it anymore. i dont want to die but at this point my options are limited. i cant do it myself either so i need someone else to. I have absolutely no reason to hold onto a remote possability that soemthing wil lchange. nothing has nothing does. it jsut gets worse and worse. Happiness? i dont know what that is. i wish i could rememebr a time when i was but i dontthink i ever have been
Don't give up yet KMS. How about you give it another 10 years and see what happens? I'm sure something good will happen. Just be more proactive and good things will follow. :hug:
please don't give up the hope that you'll never be happy, changes take time and effort. are you doing anything to change your situation?
10 years has been enough time
im not doing anything anymore. im tired im beat i give up
An old adage 'Money can't buy happiness'
I feel much the same way
and would like to bow out too
wow you are a pro racer? or a street racer?
in any case thats awesome, why would a guy like you want to kill himself?
Racers always get the best girls
neither pro nor street. jsut do it to do it. i drag race
Just be careful when you street race. I've heard of many innocent people being killed as a result of street racing.
as i said above i dont street race. i drag race. at tracks
just because id rather be dead doesnt mean i want to take someone with me