As you may know already I'm not speaking to my friends and they haven't heard from me in a while but think I'm ignoring them from what they have said on facebook. I stopped talking to them because they didn't bother to invite me out anymore and it appears they have a far better time when I'm not around anyway by the pictures I've seen. I didn't realise I was so boring to hang out with before but It's creeped up on me that I'm a dull person. I'm effectively an old man in a young persons body. The problem is I can't speak to them about it because they don't understand and they always say things like "well at least your not starving" in reference to the weight I've gained through comfort eating since leaving school and they simply end the conversation and then discuss something very trivial. I've had plenty on my mind away from my issues with friends in the last year as well, I've managed to track down my half sister online and it appears she and my half brothers have had plenty of contact with my father in the last decade where as me any my brother and sister have had none. My half sister doesn't seem keen on getting to know me and plus both her and my father have had my number for ages but don't want to get in touch. I'd like to know why I'm the outcast in life and as to why it's always me who somehow has to come to my senses and do all the talking? Does God really like the drama of a male in his 20's trying to hold it all in from an outside world who like to see people at their most vulnerable?