I'm getting tested for STDs tomorrow and if I show up positive for anything that's uncurable I'm killing myself. This may seem harsh but if I'm positive for something that can't be cured I can never have a sexual relationship with my girlfriend as she is totally against that. I've known her for three years and we've always liked it each and we've been dating for six months. I was a virgin and didn't plan on having sex with anyone until getting raped a year ago and now I have a small dot on my penis and this is most likely some kind of primary symptom. I can't sleep since there's a fair to good chance I'm going to be dead tomorrow. I don't even know why the fuck I am worrying as I have deterministic views which basically says whether I'm living or dying has already been decided and I have no real say in the matter. The coin's already been flipped, I just haven't seen it yet. No one here will be able to factor into my decision because if I can't have her I don't want to be alive anymore. Anyone want to keep me company for a bit?