I hate my life and nearly everyone and everything in it. I have decided to kill the non-physical parts of my life. Going to try my best to get off heroin and onto methadone (stabilized), will be cutting ties with all my "friends" save for a very few, and especially my ex-fiance who had me come down to meet her new live in bf and still wants to be my friend. Fuck off and die slow, ho. Then I'm moving to Chicago, moving in with a close (female) friend I havent seen in a year, it may turn into a romantic thing or it may just stay as friends, either way is fine, and get out of this small town bullshit and go live. I will be cutting all contact with my useless birth family save for birthdays and major holidays. Basically a whole new start. Only person from my old life i'll be in touch with regularly is my male best friend, and if he thinks anyone needs to hear anything from me he'll make sure they get the message.