Does anybody here feel that way? We're people and we struggle thats the beauty of life.. I've gone through lifes adversity the past 4 years, and though I've gained a lot of wisdom and strength, it was liberating at first.. But now I feel like an empty shell, like everything I went through was a joke, at war with ones self? Sound like a joke to you? I have/had OCD, BDD, depression and was suicidal for 4 years. It's been 6 months since I thought about suicide. And now that things have been looking okay for me, I want to die and I don't know why Can we just kill ourselves cause we feel like it? Is there really a right or wrong?