Out of curiosity, does anyone feel they would feel better by killing people? Nowadays, i dont get suicidal thoughts as much anymore, all i think about when i get triggered is pulling < Mod Edit Hazel: Graphic > My perspective on things have changed... like it feels like caring for people is overrated and it is a waste of time and most people dont understand how fucking sincere i am. I keep thinking people would like me if i changed but the reality is they never would no matter what i did, and plus how do i change myself to something im not, i really dont belong. If this all roots to something wrong with my communication skills, why isnt anyone out there reaching out to help me fix that, i cant do it alone. Its weird, like when i am feeling high on life, i dream about cuddling with the girl of my dreams, but when im low like right now i just want to fucking kill someone and get a little justice in this world. It feels like i cant reach my trueself unless im alone, whenever im out of my house i dont feel real, no one understands me, i just dont have that natural connection people have when they communicate publicly. I dont even know what im blabbering about right now; sorry i am trying to force out this emotion to this post but i cant. Anyways, I wouldnt expect less if this topic is left postless and forgotten so feel free.