i haven't actually posted here in years. dunno where to start really, there's lots to say but overall i've come to realize i need people to talk to about things. i feel really alone in a lot of ways and i mostly just need to have someone to talk to that isn't going to judge me too much. i'm a good listener for the most part, just sort of shy and distant at first cause it takes me a little bit to trust people. hopefully i'll be able to help someone and someone will be able to help me .