I am 31 years old from the UK. I have no money and live with my parents and brother in a 2 bedroomed council house. I've spent most of my life since university working for myself, but never really making enough to live on, so I am supported by benefits (known as welfare in the US). I have tried very hard to find stable income, but it's getting too late now. My parents are poor and are becoming old and ill and I know it will be left to me to look after everyone. I just can't afford to do it and I don't want to face that time. I also can't face the shame of being such a loser for all these years after trying so hard. Im not in any emotional turmoil or anything. I'm completely rational. I've had these thoughts many times before. I just emotionally exhausted, don't see the point in living anymore and I'm currently trying to find an easy way to fall asleep forever.