It seems that I lack basic coping skills for this life. I get triggered easily and often, seemingly out of nowhere sometimes -- I physically feel the pain of the mental anguish that I put myself through. I'm struggling so much and I don't see what the point it. I'm not sure that I'm strong enough to withstand the onslaught of feelings that I go through everyday. I feel so alone and scared. I'm scared of myself and I'm the one person I can't hide from.