Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr why the fuck do i feel like i'm the one whos done something wrong!?! jeez! i say 'well thanks for that' then ................ bloody hell. Was in a good and bad way i suppose. I'm sick of been worried constantly about people here. I can't take it, i can't take expecting them to do something, when i now it would kill me, so why not just get it over and done with now. I got the information. So why not. Why not save myself the hurt. I'm still soooo fucking angry, so fucking hurt, in more ways than one. Meh whatever, since when did that matter. Got some reading to do now :smile: reading to change my life. and while i'm at it, since when is it ok for someone to come into chat and throw abuse about for people following the rules? I try step in to help the mods out, take the heat off them for a bit cos i KNOW how much their getting stressed and people think its ok to throw abuse about. For people doing whats right. Meh whatever.