I have been given one last chance to complete my degree. I basically only have my final year project left, but this would be my third attempt at it. The project that I was assigned is really difficult, and while I do have a study leader, I was told that he will only help me when I really don't know the way forward. The thing is, I am beginning to slip back into depression again. EXACTLY how I didn't want to start the year! And to make it worse this time is that my mother and father are also going through depression themselves, so I can't approach them. They are watching me like a hawk, and if I'm not feeling well I can see how it affects them. I have brought all this sadness into my family. Sure they had their own problems, but it is as though I was that last nudge over the edge. That's why I can't go back to the psychiatrist, that and financial reasons as well. I simply have to make it this year! I am at least on medication again. My brother is a doctor and he is going to give me a chronic prescription for the next 6 months, and at least that will be partially covered by my medical aid. I guess I am just a little overwhelmed at the moment, which is quite pathetic because on the third attempt you think I would be an expert in this subject by now! Just don't know how I'm going to make it through this year!