I just joined today, and I don't know if I will come back to it or not, figured I have nothing to lose if I try it. I just feel like I have come to the end of my rope, I don't really want to go on trying but I have a few obligations that I have to fulfill and at that point I can make my decision. I have given suicide a great deal of thought and it seems to be a very viable option for me. It has gotten to such a point that I think of little else. Less and less able to hold on...less and less interested in holding on. I have no expectations of getting "over it"