Well, its my last day. Anyone who happens to remember me knows I attempted 8 months ago, this time I know where the plan went wrong and will not repeat that mistake. I have spent that time tring to find an alternative, why there should be one that I hadn't previously exhausted I really do not know. Putting off the unwanted inevitable solution I guess. Just wanted to say good luck to all those of a similar mind, please consider and then reconsider over and over. I will have a normal day for the benefit of those around me, those who I have loved and ultimately those who I must do this for.