I cant take life anymore, it's just to much for me. I've made up my mind, i'm going to kill myself next week, i doubt anything will stop me from doing it. I'm really a weak person.. I'm depressed all the time, and i just cant work along with other people. I'm shy as hell and therefore it's impossible for me to make friends. All my real friends are people i've chatted with over the internet. I get mad for things that really doesnt matter. I'm just sitting in my room rotting away, nothing ever changes. And school is killing me, it's so damn hard sitting in a classroom and trying to act normal, when all i really wanna do is just die. These last weeks i've tryed sooo hard to make things better for myself, and for a while it looked like things were going to get better. But fuck that shit, nothing ever changes.. For some people maybe, but not for me. I'm not afraid of death anymore, infact i'm looking forward it.