In just a few days my life will be over. I have suffered so many disasters over the past couple of years. No matter which way I turn all I see are dead ends. I have tried so hard to fix my life, really I have. But it seems that everything I reach out for, is just beyond my reach. From Monday I will be on the streets and I can't face that. So i will no let that moment come. I've struggled through the death of two brothers, a battle with cancer, a heart attack, the end of my 26 year marriage and the loss of just about everything I once owned. I have no ore friends to turn to for help. Now I am tired and have no further fight left in me. It may seem to some like the cowards way out, but they haven't suffered the two years that I just have. So for me it will just bring peace.