I'm going to be turning myself into jail in a couple of days. I won't say for what, but it's what I want. Here is my final letter to my mother, let me know what you think. Dear Mom, I know you may not understand why I chose to do what I chose to do. You should know that I love and care for you very much, and I care for all the pets too. I chose to do this because I was broken. And nothing and no one could help me. I spent my whole life liking girls, wasting them on trying to find one. But I never accepted that none of them would like me. Girls are just not the way you think they are anymore. And I wanted to show that to you. I also wanted to do this because, you have been on this earth for so long. You spent so many years living for me. But All I ever did was disappoint myself, my life, a waste. It's time to live your life Mom. I want nothing but happiness for you because it's not about me. Let me go. It's okay, i'll be fine. Move Away. Take all the money I have, and buy yourself a new VCR. I love you very much Mom, I always have, and I always will. It's time to forfill all the dreams you wanted to. Life goes by fast, so fast that you forget that it's going buy. But it's going by all too fast for you. You should be able to find a husband. I have time, but my time isn't now. So please, atleast for me, live your life. All I want is for you to be truly happy for Christmas.