Hello everyone.Something happen last night.I get drunk.Me.Who never drunk.Alone. So i will tell you what happen. These months im depressed and thinking about suicide and i have a lot of problems and negative feelings. I was planing to commit suicide. And then thursday come. I was planing to drink whole botlle of vodka.But in the end i wasnt. I was drink little by little whole day.And then when my grandma left house i was drunk more.And I was only drinking half of bottle vodka.And i dont know am i was really drunk or not but i wasnt okay. Then SHOW! I was leave bottle and went to sleep but i couldnt get sleep.I was feeling that im not myself.Feeling repented why am i do that?I was thinking that alchohol will help to get some emotion. And it is.I was so fucking alone last night.I wanted to hug someone.Anybody.I was crying so much.I was like crazy. I just wanted to share that with you. I was like crazy.I dont know,i think that is end of me. Its not all what happend last night,i will tell you later.