I spoke to my father last night, and I'm getting pulled into another stupid situation where my stepmother is angry at me for nothing again. On top of that, my father wants me to come visit him. However, he doesn't approve of my psychiatric care, and I'm pretty sure if I went, he would throw away my medication. After the call, I felt really bad. I felt like ending it right then. I didn't cut like I often do after stress, because I couldn't trust myself not to do something stupid like slit my wrist. Thankfully, it is the last minute, and there probably aren't tickets available to go visit him by now, so I can use that as an excuse, I guess.