I've considered suicide for some time. I have it all planned out, down to the very last detail. Nice to be organised, I guess..... One thing has kept me from doing it. My son. Tonight, I had another huge fight with my husband. We have an awful marriage, but he won't let me go, long story. It's ruining my son's life, who is living with us. Tonight he said he'd rather we all lived apart, because he can't take the fighting anymore. He can't live on his own, and I can't take him with me, no money and I'm ill. I thought if I stayed, it would be better for him, but it's not. There's no other way out, so I'll take the one way I have. I'm tired of hurting and being ill. It's funny, but the emotional pain and anguish is actually much worse than the physical pain I have because of my illnesses. I want peace. God, I just want peace. I've only posted a few times, and everyone has been so nice. I'm sorry I haven't posted more, but I've been in such a dark place, I just didn't know what to say to help others. Just wanted to thank everyone here. You're all very nice. I hope there's something on the other side. Goodbye.