Last Rights of Me

Discussion in 'Poet's Corner' started by silent_beast, Jul 8, 2008.

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  1. silent_beast

    silent_beast Active Member

    Here is a poem I wrote not too long ago. I'm sorry if might seem a bit juvenile, but it explains the might state that I truly in at that moment.

    A hollow shell of mystery,
    because I am not sure who I used to be
    Never defined myself as anyone,
    only molded to fit in with everyone
    Decisions, lies, and videotapes,
    decorate my life and my mental rape
    I have always felt this way and now,
    I want to even more

    Distance myself from everyone around me
    Try not to scream because that would be to easy
    Let someone in, who would do that?
    That's like reopening wounds you'd rather forget
    But that's just it, you can never forget
    Because the bruises won't let you, nor will the pain
    Nor the ashes of happiness that once lived in a dream

    Everyone around me is my worst enemy
    Never heard your name before
    But I still fear you
    I feel your footsteps
    As they creep through the halls
    I walk amongst myself though I am surrounded on four sides
    The "assholes" of today are the walls surrounding me
    The oceans that want to take the oxygen I breathe
    I panic when this thought occurs to me
    I don't know what to do next

    A ticking time bomb waiting to detonate
    I'll spray these walls with my own hate
    They'll paint the picture of my own life
    Made to order in blood tonight
    Life will become instant trips
    When I give the razor blade a slip
    An instant gash down my arm
    I hope this doesen't start an alarm
    I'll hide it all from those around
    It'll go smoothly without a sound

    Eventually I'll reach my peak
    And find a rope to help me see
    An end to this misery
    And maybe get a little sleep
    And the last seconds before I say
    "Goodbye" to this world today
    I'll want to leave a little note
    It'll says "Thanks, couldn't have done it without you folks..."
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