I'm not posting this to have anyone tell me not to kill myself or any of that shit as I've already made up my mind and it's become apparent people on here are useless as providing help. You are either outright ignored, given a half-assed solution, or told things will get better which they fucking won't. I'm not doing it in the immediate future depending on your definition of it (I figure I will linger on a few months) and either way this will be the last topic I post on here. Anyone could have helped me at any point with just a little bit and I would well on my way to being self-sufficient. Of course in this society you have to be mother fucking insane to get any help at all and even then you get inadequate help. And I'm fine that no one gives a shit me, that's human nature to not give a fuck about something that is just fucking leeching off you, it's evolution. You need to regulate anything for anything to truly get done. But it's fucking bullshit that our government is fucking worthless and at any fucking point if I was given a job, or opportunity to fucking do anything I would have been incredible. I've applied to 25 places in the last year and have only gotten two interviews. I've had one offer for a job at a knives sale place and was told I was easy to talk to and good with people. Of course my car tires got slashed so I couldn't show up for my orientation. Of course it was who live downstairs and I really truly am not racist even though the vast majority of the time I am being fucked with it is a XX person. My engine was then destroyed after I got my tires fixed. The other jobs I've applied for I've been boned at and had some stupid XXX properly get hired over me because of Affirmative Action bullshit. It's a shame that I live in the richest fucking country in the damn world and people here are needlessly suffering all the time because of stupid moronic bullshit. We already know the republican half of the country are morons wanting tax cuts in a FUCKING DEPRESSION and the liberals only look respectable because the republicans are just THAT bad but they are also retarded and pretty much morally bankrupt as well. We brainwash our children with religion and do a shitty job fucking raising them and we end up drugging children with concentrated crack (amphetamines and methylphenidates) and if this is the best we can do in the richest country on earth it's fucking pathetic. I'm never going to resort to violence even before I die just ot make that clear but it's no fucking wonder kids are fucking XXXs. No one gives a shit until you are in the damn grave and even when you give people the most blatant fucking warning signs possible you are still ignored. When I blow my head off and all my potential is wasted forever it's going to be a real fucking shame. I can't even explain how much fucking potential I have and how smart I've realized I am but none of you would be able to understand. I have so much potential for so many things but they will never happen now. It seems like I am just saying this but I'm not. Just have been busy destroying my things and will be lingering on for however long I can. Can't deal with the isolation anymore or any of this and when I die it won't matter to anyone that my life was wasted for no reason. I've tried my hardest for years now and am just done.