I was very depressed and out of it that night. I got drunk and took some acne pills hoping not to wake the next morning. Even after promising a friend I'd call her the next morning to say i was ok. i will keep trying 'til it works and study up on it.
Life is too stressful and it weems that no one listens to me. I am alone in the world and it seems that it is meant to be that way. it hasn't changed in several years. So I could just as well be alone in death.