It's hard for me to get out of bed, to even look in the mirror. Everyday is like this darkness that never seems to end, like there is this small pin hole size light at the end of my tunnel but I can never get even close enough to it. I don't now what to do anymore, I feel like it would be so much easier to just end it all. That way I would finally have peace, I would no longer be a burden to this world or the people in it. Every moment I seem to start getting better it seems to just come to a halt, that happiness I was starting to feel turns on me like a rabid dog, chewing on my soul. I wont to be better, I want to smile again, not just for a brief moment, but for a lifetime.