i have been thinking and i have come to the conclusion that nothing really matters. i am not real, nothing is real. once i die nothing will matter, if i was a success in life or if i was considered a lowlife, cause it will be the end to this so-called "reality" i guess i am living in. i am just living to die just like everyone else. and once i die everything around me will die. im not even myself anymore, im just this machine programed into a fake world. life is not real, it was not real before i was "born" and it sure as hell wont be when i am gone. any memory that i have presently will just simply vanish and this "universe" that i live in will go with it. i dont know why im even sitting here typing this out to more people just like me that wont even exist once i die.