Gah! I was going to start this thread to ask a question but I chicken out of even hinting at what I want to ask, even on here >.<.... Forget it.. maybe this shouldn't even go here, who knows. Probably seems all random but I pretty much try to just let my mind auto pilot and write, so sorry if it's messed up... Ah.. blegh! I'll just ask it... What if you knew you'd never be happy in life until you took a certain leap of faith, I mean there is no coming back it could ruin your life and leave you just as unhappy... should you risk hurting everyone and be selfish or just accept things the way they are?