Hi, Just wondering, I have my exit strategy all planned, the only hassle is I have to wait until after my brother's wedding (another five weeks away), so I don't bugger up the festivities. Is it better to just drop off the face of the earth or is finding a body preferrable? (the method I've planned isn't messy.) Please don't try and disuade me, I've been struggling with this for 20 years. I'm 34 now and have decided I can't be bothered with feeling like this any longer. A.