I will be as thin or fat as I want to be. I will cut myself if I want to and yes I will have scars. If I want tattoos I will get them and I love them all because of the pain and the meaning of them. Please stop telling me to stop why does everyone think I can just stop if I want to-I can't. I don't actually think I want to cos this is me this is how I live and how I survive everyday If you take my blades away then I'll have nothing-I do try but once the thought is in my head it won't go until I do it. Please don't tell me to eat more or just start eating aswell-I don't want to and I won't-I want to dissappear I know I'LL BE HAPPY WHEN i'M THIN-TRUELY THIN. So do you know what you're too late to care.