He's going to get better and leave me in the dust. I don't blame him. i never deserved him. i never deserved anybody. i was a fool to think anything more. and I was a jerk to drag him into my misery. i should die just for that alone. nothing will ever change for me. nothing will ever get better. I've already faded in his mind. and i'll fade just as quickly in their's. i'm meaningless. there's no light left. i should die soon.