Not sure if anyone will post or even admit it but why not I mean those people, things, groups, parts of life that suck the life out of other aspects of life inorder to survive. I guess everything in a manner leeches off of everything else. Giving one part and taking another part of somethings flow or energy. I mean real leechers. The ones who have no substance and constantly seek out other peoples lives to fill theirs with substance, instead of doing it themselves. I personally wake up everyday feeling like a leech, but get sucked into the moment when Im with people, and become it. Distressing but fixable I suppose. I literally cannot function for long without listening to music. Or trying(and failing) to talk to someone. When Im just me... fucking hell. When someone else is around, im completely different. When I want to be with someone, I try too hard. But when I barely try to do anything for myself. I always wondered how people could become leeches. Fancy i've become one. I've tried leeching feelings and sensations from emotiontially tormenting myself, but even in that :S. Lifes shit when you realize you refused to be, you saw, you ignored, you wanted, and desired but now you have no skills and abilities, but you need. Such a shit situation when you feel no satisfaction in anything, that youre nothing more then a leech. I keep rebelling against myself inside, it's just, nutty in contrast to what I am. Makes me know no matter what I do, I can't be near or with anyone. One thing to say it but it's like holding your breath forever once I realized it. Anyone know wtf im talking about? Or is this feeling going to fade away like the rest. .. probably will. Im always shit at followups anyhow.