Am trying to let go of so many things. Of things that will never be. Of people that will never be what I need them to be in my life. Of those that hurt me. Intentionally or Unintentionally. Of memories, lots of hurtful memories. Of mistakes I've made. Of sadness, anger, grief, lonliness etc. I'd like to let go of caring. Caring that others care. Caring that others are there for me. Caring about what others think. Caring and worrying about others when it simply isn't reciprocated. Caring takes up so much energy, but the way I care isn't a healthy way. It can preoccupy me and cause much worry. I'd like to let go of any hope. I'm not sure I have much to start with. But can't I just say - it is what it is. Quit trying & falling, trying, falling, trying, falling... Either accept what is or do something about it. In a positive or negative way. I'd really like to let go of being scared. Scared of just being. Of noises, loudness, things out of the blue. Of people startling me, of being on edge. Of feeling frightened. I'd also like to just let go. To be free. Free of so much that I carry around with me, day in and day out. Why can't it go, why can't I let it go? What good does it do? To have this weight, darkness and fear follow me and be with me and within me? Yes - to be free. Truly free. I'm so tired of "this". Overwhelming sadness, overwhelming life.