Let Me Off This Rollercoaster

[reborn1961]

I am so tired of myself I can't stand it. I have struggled with suicide and suicide attempts for 7 years now. I get better for a little while than I am back into that dark hole. I am cutting again, I can even cut while having a fun conversation in the chat room. That has got to be warped.

I know I am coming into that darkness again where I attempt. I don't want to be there but suicide seem like my only option these days. I have certainly tried various means of help but they all eventually fail. I think I have reached a peace that tells me its alright to quit fighting for life. I tried and sometimes things end in failure.

When all options are exhausted, I don't think there is anything wrong with choosing your own destiny, even if it is death. :sad:

 

[Hazel]

I'm sorry you are feeling so bad again, it is true there are times when it feels like all options are exhausted but its always worth another try, another corner to turn, please don't give up hope, stay and talk to us.

Stay safe Hazel x