I want it to end. I've been isolating myself so no one will miss me. I have a few plans in mind. I no longer want to be part of this. I see everyone else at least write more than this in the #1 post in a thread but I'm useless so I can't because I don't know what to write. I'm not really alive - but I'm still breathing. I'm tired of the loneliness, the insomnia, the anxiety, the panic attacks, the inability to get out of bed when I wake up, I'm tired of everything. I want out.