Most suicide attempts are not sincere and therefore fail. Based on what I read on sites such as this, most people who "attempt" suicide have not thoroughly and carefully researched the topic and are clueless as to reliable and relatively painless methods of suicide. Their attempts are not really intended to succeed; they are the proverbial "cry for help". When a person threatens suicide repeatedly over a prolonged period, or makes numerous failed attempts it is clear that they are not really intent on killing themselves. They are desperate for relief from pain, but don't really want to die. This is especially obvious when the person broadcasts announcements as to their impending "attempt". Obviously, they want to be rescued. Such announcements reduce the possibility of success and that is, in fact, exactly their purpose. I feel suicidal most of the time. However, I have never made an "attempt". If I was to do it, I would do it, not attempt it. It is very sad that so many people hurt so bad that only death seems to offer relief. I count myself amongst those people. My heart goes out to all those who have posted their agony here. At the same time I must confess to annoyance at the stupidity I see here. Most so-called suicide attempts consists of gobbling bottles of pills with no idea what the effect will be! This seems amazingly stupid to me. It usually won't kill you, but may make you very sick and often leads to a very unpleasant hospital visit. According to the research I've done, mega doses of many medications can cause permanent and painful organ damage. Gobbling pills while having no idea of the effect, is asking for more pain. It's just plain stupid. I often have fantasies of killing myself. Often, it is the most comforting thought I have. After years of "treatment" (medications, therapy, hospitalization) I continue to suffer excruciating emotional pain 24/7 and find myself wishing for death. In my fantasy, I've planned the whole thing out and chosen a method that is highly reliable and I don't tell anyone about it ahead of time. However, I doubt I will actually do it since I am a coward. I am posting under "Soap Box" rather than "Suicide" because I don't think my thoughts are very helpful to suicidal people, but I have become so irritated by the stupidity I read here every day that I had to get it off my chest. Thanks for listening.