Can't do this anymore. I don't want to get up tomorrow, I don't want to carry on. I shouldn't even be thinking this, it's not fair on other people. But I can't help it. Things have gotten worse not better. I don't care anymore, I'm gonna fucking cut, and I'm gonna take my fucking meds, because it's the only way to cope. I don't want to do this, but I don't want to do the other shit in my head, so this seems like the lesser of two evils. Why is this happening? 4 months ago things were getting better, whats changed? Why do I still feel sad despite the good stuff. I can't face tomorrow, and even if I do, it doesn't matter, because I can't do the rest of my life. I just know it won't work. I just don't understand anymore.