I just want to take this moment to say thank-you, For what it's worth, thank-you so much for helping others and I in this community, this situation will not arise again, I know you might not believe that, but, it's too destructive to continue like this, and I'm deeply grateful for your assistance, and I WILL NOT break my oaths, I say I might but it would break me, I'd have nothing left. I won't play the bully mod again, nor a fake mod in any capacity, on my life. When I came to this site, I was a wreck, I'd been banned from an online business community and a 12 step mailing list, that's why I Googled Suicide forum. I have grown here, I'm learning, and I'm healing myself and others, and I'm cutting off diseased remnants of the person I no longer wish to be. I have posted poems here. I have laughed, I've cried. I've made friends. Thank-you for the way you all touched my life, you all said you were sorry I was so easily hurt by people, some said it directly, some indirectly. I am proud of you for that level of compassion, and whether or not you will ever call me a friend, from this side of the fence, that's what I call you guys. Please forgive me for my sins, I am a worthless sinner. That's all I am in this life. Have some cake guys :cake: . You deserve it.