J
I know that the process of grief takes a long time. And it doesn't help when along the road of grieving for someone loved and lost, you lose someone else.. it's like things just get piled up, and you're buried under an avalanch of sadness, and you're so covered up you are hopeless to do anything but feel the pain from the weight it all brings onto your heart.
Breathing, sleeping, moving, just the everday things become more and more difficult without them here. I miss each and everyone of the terrific people that have passed on that I've had the privledge to know.
I just wish the pain from losss would just ease enough to let me breathe. To let me survive. To ease the feelings that I just want to give in and be with them. I know they wouldn't want me to die but I can't help but, through all the pain, want to be with them.
:cry: I decided to post something, anything I could get out, just to see if it would provide any release at all.. anything.. even the smallest bit would help right now...
Breathing, sleeping, moving, just the everday things become more and more difficult without them here. I miss each and everyone of the terrific people that have passed on that I've had the privledge to know.
I just wish the pain from losss would just ease enough to let me breathe. To let me survive. To ease the feelings that I just want to give in and be with them. I know they wouldn't want me to die but I can't help but, through all the pain, want to be with them.
:cry: I decided to post something, anything I could get out, just to see if it would provide any release at all.. anything.. even the smallest bit would help right now...