letting it out

Discussion in 'Rants, Musings and Ideas' started by am I alive, Apr 19, 2010.

  1. am I alive

    am I alive Well-Known Member

    Haven't been here in a while so here i am, ranting again...

    Well, I just don't know what to do anymore. I am not even depressed anymore. I am spending days totally alone. I am not even trying to change anything. Well, i am trying to find a job but no success yet. I feel like a old man waiting to die soon,sitting in a chair. I've been this way for too long, it seems like i used to it. I wish i don't have any family right now so i can drink to death or something...Well i don't have wife and kids but i have mother who i don't want to hurt. Nothing thrills me anymore...
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    sorry to say you are depressed but in a deeper level of depression where one feels nothing. I hope you can talk to your therapist or jst your doctor and see if you can get your medication changed a bit or get in for more therapy but talk to someone okay. You are still depressed just in the hole a little deeper.
  3. am I alive

    am I alive Well-Known Member

    I am not on medications. I believe meds would not help me much. Maybe i am wrong. Well, i already said i don't feel bad i just lost will to live. I just don't want to feel happy when there is absolutely no reason for that. The only thing i want is a job. Without a job i can't plan my future. I just feel like a loser. I don't wanna see my friends anymore nor talk to anyone...Thanks